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Tuesday, 21 June 2005

  • It has been three months since I last updated.....sue me .....I have been busy.

     

    Plus....I didn't really have much to say.

     

     

     

     

    As I drove to work....this morning

    I was still drunk from last night

    Now my hangover is in full swing

    And I am not feeling quite right

     

    When I burp...I can taste bourbon

    Or scotch, or rum,.... I forgot

    After that first whole bottle of wine

    I just know that I drank a lot.

     

    When I got home at three in the morning

    I was sleepy, but otherwise fine

    Now I feel like I was hit by a truck

    I doubt that it was just the wine

     

     

    Ok.....that was garbage

     

     

     

    Ever hear of the Zen concept of self determinism?

     

    This is the idea that The Master knows that Everything that happens in one’s own life is a result of one’s own choises.

     

    By example:

    It was you who chose to sleep that extra 10 minutes.

    It was you who decided that you had to hurry because you were running late.

    It was you who chose to run that red light rather than wait for it to change.

    It was you that decided not to examine your surroundings before transgressing the law.

    So when the police officer that you zoomed past as you ran the red light is writing you a ticket and making you even MORE late for work. Why are you angry at him? His only choise was whether or not to do his job….and you WANT him to do his job this time because it means it is much more likely that he will choose to do his job when you NEED him to.

     

    Some dogs….

    When you walk them

    Will stick right by your side

    With no leash to hold them

    Others will need a loose leash

    To describe the boundaries

    Within which they are free to move

    However, some will strain at that

    Pulling with all their might this way and that

    These require a tight leash and strict control

    It is not the owner that sets the limits of freedom

    Though the owner may if he so chooses

    Rather, it is the dog that determines this.

    Though its own actions.

     

    And again….

     

    Some dogs do not want to leave the house

    Some will go out, but will sit and wait

    At the door for the owner to come out with them.

    Some will go out, do their business, and come back when they are done

    Some will go out and not come back until they are called

    Some will go out and not come back at all, and so a fence is required.

    Some will climb over or dig under the fence, and thus must be tied

    Some will chew though the rope…and thus must be chained

    Some will bark a lot when they are chained

    Some will snarl and become vicious when chained, but will be ok when loose.

    Some are not safe to unchain.

    Some must be caged for the owner’s safety

    Some should be destroyed, but are not because the owners like them that way

    Some are destroyed, regardless of their owner.

    Two factors determine what level the dog resides at

    The trust of the owner in the future actions of the dog

    And the actual actions of the dog on any given day

     

    So…I suppose the question is…

    Which dog are you?....and why?

     

     

     

     

     

     

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Friday, 04 March 2005

  • Running headlong into the fray again

    Not heedless to the perils and pitfalls

    Rather, embracing their possibility

    Whilst entertaining hopes that this time

    Probability will work in my favor….for once

     

    It is very hard to do, did you know?

    Trying to stay within the feelings of the moment

    Not to let the worries of what might be dissuade me

    Nor to allow the events of the past haunt me

    Both conspiring to rob me of my life and joy

     

    I do not deny the fears that plague my mind

    Am I plunging into perilous folly once again?

    Should I not reserve a portion of myself

    Something to fall back upon when the ground

    Opens up and tries to swallow me whole

    Dragging my spirit screaming into the darkness

     

    This is not my way, I am not that pragmatic

    I feel I must throw myself fully into it

    Else not even try at all, doing nothing

    Crying myself to sleep in a darkened room

    Bemoaning the fate I thrust upon myself

     

    I was not really even looking this time

    Those I found most worthy, were unavailable

    Having given up on the search for a companion

    I find one falling out of the sky from nowhere

    Thus, have all my best relationship begun.

     

     

     

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Wednesday, 02 March 2005

  • I need to see you there before me

    I need to touch you and hold you

    To know that you are real

    And not some figment of my imagination

     

    The peace you grant my spirit

    Began to evaporate once we parted

    The veil grows thin and threadbare

    And I feel my old self returning

     

    I try to speak on the phone

    But that is not really you

    Just a disembodied voice

    That taunts me with your absence

     

    I tried to be strong and wait

    I knew our time apart would not be long

    But I also know our time together is too short

    And I feel that I am wasting it

     

    Every day that passes me by

    Without a taste of your adoration

    Is time wasted in my mind

    As the memory of the feeling fades

     

    Every moment spent with you is a treasure

    But I am overcome with greed

    I want to devour every last morsel

    Before the feast is ripped away

     

    When I am there with you

    I am the prince of all princes

    But in those times I am alone

    I am just a sad starving man 

     

     

     

     

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